The other day I ran into a friend who just finished shooting a role in a major motion picture, and is about to star in a new Broadway show. Of course I was so thrilled at this news and proud of my friend, but then the normal carousel of thoughts began. Why aren’t I starring in a Broadway show? I should have gotten an audition for that movie. Maybe it’s my agent? Maybe it’s because I didn’t start my career as a child? I could have been “discovered” like Elijah Wood or Macaulay Culkin. If only I had been on “The Mickey Mouse Club” like Britney Spears or Justin Timberlake, but my parents wouldn’t take me to the audition in Houston. I should have gone to Juilliard, then I could have followed a path similar to Finn Wittrock or Michael Urie or been best friends with Jason Robert Brown. Why did I take my Equity card so soon after college just to be in the ensemble? I would be playing leads now!
Then the thoughts moved from compare-and-despair to more negative thoughts, or what I perceive as negative. Perhaps I’m not good enough to play lead roles, get into Juilliard, and this is a good as it’s going to get. As my head started to spin the spiral of show business
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